12 Weeks

Here is my belly at 12 weeks. I am telling you, I feel different this week. I don't think I look that different, but I feel my belly hanging over my pants. My you-know-whats are also spilling over. The changes in my body are not bringing out cozy mothering feelings. Instead, I am worried over the life take-over that will be this child! I am so worried about losing my identity as an individual. I realize that these fears are completely selfish. I realize that I should probably keep my mouth shut. I realize that my poor child will think I don't love it. BUT... I am scared!

It is kind of like the identity change I went through after getting married. I changed my name. MY OWN NAME! I wasn't even ME anymore! Very weird. I mean I made the choice to get married. I made the choice to change my name. I just didn't realize the effect I would experience.

Now I am feeling similar. I won't even be Stacey WILSON now. I will be "Timmy's Mom". Or some-such thing.

Don't worry, I will be back to excited next week. I just have this selfish moment that I need to write down in order to move through it. I don't really do "bottled up".

12 weeks tomorrow!!

May 14, 2007

Here is my 6 week & 5 day photo - taken after our first doctor visit. I was ecstatic!! This was the day that we called everyone and told them. It was KILLING me for the nine days that I knew and couldn't say anything! When that ultrasound was floating around all blurry I was just curious, and then... there was this major pumping going on_____ it was the baby's heartbeat!!!!! I was totally crying, then the lady turned on the sound and we HEARD it! That thing was not even a centimeter, but had a heartbeat. That's it, I turned into blubber....

June 13, 2007

This is 11 weeks - not much difference! Although last week I was wondering how my baby can be growing if I am not, I am now perfectly content with not showing just yet. This weekend we saw my sister Amanda at the Tjerrild Family Picnic at Bass Lake. Girl has 7 weeks to go, but appears to be ready to explode!

At any rate, I am going to try to be patient for this kid - no matter what I do it won't be here for a while anyway.

Peace.

Live from Soledad....It's Monday Night!

Well, I am back from Denmark!


(Photo of my mom & Karin - who we stayed with most of the trip).





Ok, so I've been back for two entire months.





GIVE ME A BREAK! They have been really busy months:





April:

• Reopened the Soledad Pool


• Had surgery on my shoulder


• Taught a lifeguard training class


• Went away with Blaine for the weekend


• Found out I am PREGNANT!

May:

• Eat everything in sight


• Cry at every song on the radio


• Daydream about napping


• Lay awake at night hoping my boobs fall off


• Anxiously await my next doctor's appointment
• List our house for sale: www.573desertstar.com

Now that it is June 4th, I am still feeling like I was in the entire month of May (I thought it was the "merry, merry month of May"?).

The good news is that I have been very busy at work. (Therefore not focusing too much on the ticking clock or my preggo symptoms). I am really excited to be meeting my personal goal of adding two new programs each year. This year I am actually adding many more: Girls' Softball, Track Team, Summer Concert Series, Summer Craft Series, and Flag Football. Additionally, next week we launch our new website: www.soledadrec.com. Check it out to see everything that is "happening in Soledad" (I know that is cheezy, but I love the catchphrase!)

Hope all is well in your neck of the woods. Check in often, because I will post photos of my pregnant belly (or lack of it right now) and more photos of the kid after the next ultrasound (June 26th).

Here's to Wilson Baby #1 - 10 weeks along on Wednesday!